Episode 1: Exercise, Willpower & Self-Principle
In the very first episode of the Martial Art of Self podcast, I share my personal insights and realizations when it comes to exercise, willpower and self-principle. We explore the following questions: Is it possible to push through the laziness, lethargy, and resistance towards training? Can it be that we can create a motivation point within ourselves that can move through negative emotions?
I believe that exercise within martial arts is not only a tool for building physical strength, but self-character. One can take all the words within martial arts and philosophy (such as strength and power) and apply it to other aspects of our lives – making martial arts an integral part of us.
To become self-motivated and develop the strength to meet many internal resistances and challenges towards training and growing ourselves is absolutely possible. In this episode I explain what has worked for me and how I am living it.
Music by Fidelis Spies
[00:00:00] Welcome to the Martial Art of Self podcast, a podcast about bringing the essence of martial arts back to self.
[00:00:12] My name is Aldin and in today’s episode I will be talking about exercise, will power, and what I call Self-Principal.
[00:00:21] I have a very interesting point that I’ve come across here for myself during one of my training sessions, which is that – What I’ve realized that in essence energy, and what I mean with energy is our emotions and our feelings particularly – When they fail as our motivation. When they fail as the point that motivates us. When they fail as our motivators, if you will.
[00:00:50] And, this has — I have experienced it in this case particularly through several instances throughout the weeks, the months when I started to become more serious in my training, in my.. where I started to be.. to, to — try to incorporate some form of martial arts training. Say even if it’s just some form of movements every single day and not skip a day – is that I would have — I would notice that when I have these positive feelings — and I’m sure you can relate to this, is that– is you go throughout your days, you go throughout your life, in the weeks that your go for, the months that you go through is that you will notice that you have ups and downs, so to speak.
[00:01:43] What I mean with that is that you have periods were you — Your positive feelings, the positive energy, the positive experiences you have are more accentuated than the negative ones – the emotions.
[00:01:58] And then it will flip during a certain period of time like a wave, where you will have more of your negative emotions, your negative experiences, your negative energies if you will, accentuated and the positive ones are going more into the background and are less accentuated and are less intense, and thus you experience less. They are kind of drowned out by the negative ones.
[00:02:25] So, that is as a side note. What I’ve noticed in relationship to the energy and it being motivation for training is that during those – that period of time where the positive feeling would be more accentuated, and I would not be so much aware or experience so much intensely the negative emotions, but more the positive ones – is that I would have a raised – a raised feeling of motivation, if you will, a raised feeling of ‘will’ and of ‘want’ to train, and to channel toward training and to make the training and going to the training and doing the training more likely and more reality, and then when I would hit that lower wave part or point, so to speak in in life, if you will, where more of the negative emotions are here, and I experienced them more and am more aware of them, and I’m more in a low mood, in a low point, so to speak. Be it depression, be it anger, be it inner conflict, and so on, and so forth – is that the likelihood of me skipping training and — because of giving in to the excuses, the reasons, the justifications, that would be conjured up and that I would come up within my mind – would be more likely, and thus in this particular case of those particular movements of the ups and downs, and thus the relationship between the feeling and the emotion toward my training and whether or not I would do my training or whether or not I would skip it or do you only half-heartedly, so to speak –
[00:04:27] Is that I have realized that it is a pretty, a pretty bad idea, if you will to base your motivation, your will, your drive, your decision to train based on how you feel in terms of your feelings, in terms of your emotions, in term of your thoughts and what you think.
[00:04:50] And that the Self, Me, You, the ‘Me’ part, so to speak – the Being, if you will must become the motivational point, the point of reference, where the motivation, the drive, and the will to train, and to do do training, so to speak must be brought back to self.
[00:05:15] Back to the Being, where like this in a moment I decide I’m going to train and I’m sticking to this decision and I’m executing on this decision and I’m going to train based on the decision. Thus ‘Me’ deciding like this in a moment on-demand that I’m going to train.
[00:05:36] I am creating in that moment the motivation for me must be like that I have realized where in a moment I decide I’m going to train, and this decision is final. I’m moving myself to train.
[00:05:51] And I’m making an agreement with myself where I list now for example all the points, all the reasons of why I’m training and where I want to go with the training, or through the training, so to speak, and this agreement becomes holy to me. It’s like ‘The Agreement’ for me if you will and then in that moment where I decide I’m going to create the motivation, the will, the desire if you will to train. I make the decision to train, I make the decision that I am creating this motivation for me and I’m making the decision that I’m honoring my agreement I made with myself as to why I’m training, and I’m sticking to this. I’m moving myself. I’m willing myself to do the training based on that decision, based on that agreement and honoring that agreement, that reason or reasons why I’m training in the first place.
[00:06:49] So, thus in essence realizing that Self must become the point of motivation. That motivation, will, desire, want to train must be brought back to self and not – and not have those — the decision of whether – and the outcome of whether or not I, or you are going to train be based on how we feel, based on whether or not we have positive feelings or based on whether we have, or are going through negative emotions at the moment.
[00:07:26] But independent of whether or not — Of what the feeling or emotion is that we’re going through, we are training if we decide to train. And we’re doing it. Sticking to it. We are not accepting, we are not allowing any excuses, forms, reasons, justifications, any experience, or thought, or inner back-chat talk that has that nature of excuse, reason and justification and resistance of telling us apparently that we can’t train, we shouldn’t train, it’s okay to not train.
[00:08:08] But, we stick to our decision. Like this, in a moment, we decide to train, we decide to create motivation and be motivation for training an honor, and stick to our agreement we made with ourselves.
[00:08:25] And this point of agreement, of making this agreement with self is – is a quite important,
[00:08:35] I find for me, point that I will dedicate part of, or even maybe a complete separate episode of this podcast to in the future.
[00:08:50] What I have further realized, in terms of through my process of exercising and then for quite some time really having tried to exercise daily is that my — is that I first of all gotten to know and understand my relationship to exercises, as to how it was before, more.
[00:09:20] And in that equally through that process of exercising and trying to push myself and move myself to at least do some form of training, of martial arts training, of movement, of self-movement in and through the physical body, if you will, and not be dependent on emotions and feelings to move myself, to for example do training and do movement or exercise, even if it’s for just 20 or 30 minutes, is that my — that I’ve discovered more dimensions to exercises.
[00:09:51] Meaning that I’ve gotten to learn and understand that, at least to me now this point in this time of my life is that exercise– I see exercise is a tool not only for building the external points or parts like the body, like muscles, speed, agility, power, martial arts techniques, or whatever it is that is external. But that exercising, that movement in the physical is a tool for building the Self-Character.
[00:10:34] Building the character within. The ‘who I am’. The being. The ‘Me’. And, in assisting and in supporting me to take all these things, take all these words that I discover through my martial arts training, for example strength, power, agility and whatever I train for in the external movement of the martial arts, if you will, and take those things, those aspects, those words, those characteristics that I train on the outside, the external as the body, and bring them back to self, and see where and how can I incorporate and make these words, these characteristics that I train in the outside, that I train as my physical body: Where can I make them part and live them?
[00:11:25] Inside me, as me, as my being, as my person, as my characters if you will and apply it in all areas of my life on-demand when and as it is needed and required in that moment.
[00:11:40] Not just have those characteristics and words, if you will, be tied to only the and during the time where I do the external movements, the external exercises, but be able to live and apply, and conjure up of those words and characteristics within in any situation, in any moment of my life. Whenever that point of necessity for that word, for that expression, for that living of that point or characteristic or expression – like strength, power, balance, etc. – is needed and required for me to live. To assist and support me through an experience, a challenge, a moment, a point, a time frame in my life.
[00:12:27] To recap: That exercise I see now as a tool to build my self-character. Not just the ‘outer self’, but equally so the ‘inner self’.
[00:12:41] And, I find it quite important. It also– It also brings about a point of balance in terms of just working on not making it not just a workout, a working on the outside, on the external, on the external self if you will, but also equally a balanced point of working on the internal through the external, and then also at the same time then from there– from developing and working on the internal – it assist and support on working on and building and enhancing and supporting the building and the working of the external again. So, it’s like a Yin and Yang if you will. A ‘Give and Receive’ if you will in this– in this context of the relationship of working on inside but equally on the outside. And working on the outside, but equally on the inside of– of the self.
[00:13:40] Just to recap the– the core essential points of his podcast being that: That energy, the way we feel, the– our emotions and feelings usually fail as our motivators when we are in the negative experience, when we are more in the emotional part.
[00:14:05] And, thus– From there the realization that actually the self must become that point of motivation, of on-demand creating the motivation, the will, the desire to train based on the decision I take based on the agreement I made with myself. Thus the point of motivation, will and desire and thus power to train and make sure that I train and don’t skip my training – is in my own hands, is in Self’s own hands, is in one’s own hands and not in the hands of emotions and feelings and how we feel or experience ourselves at any moment– at any given moment in our lives, in our processes.
[00:14:48] And, thirdly that exercise should not be just a tool for working the external, the body if you will, building muscles and speed and power and so on, but equally a training, a exercising, a support of building the character of self, the internal, the within. Strengthening thus both the external and the internal self and making this– the training, the workout of self not just external, not just internal, but external and internal and thus whole, sound, wholesome.
[00:15:25] So, this is– this is going to be it for today’s episode, for this episode. I hope you enjoyed it. And, I hope to see you within the next episodes. Thank you very much.
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